Everybody knows this right here
Your mother, your father, yous sister, your brother
Abuela y abuelo, everybody sing along!
Latino!!
Mami el negro, cubano
Mami el negro, puertoriqueno
Mami el negro, dominicano
Mami el negro, mexicano
[Chorus]
[2x]
Mami el negro esta rabioso
El quiere tu azucar, y tu no se lo das
Esa morena esta sabrosa
Y cuando tu la tocas, ella se vuelve loca
[2x]
Mami que sera lo que quiere el negro, (a mi que me importa)
yo lo que quiero es esa loca, (dale dale loca)
Mami que sera lo que quiere el negro, (a mi que me importa)
yo lo que quiero es esa loca, (dale dale loca)
[Lil Jon] Lets go
Hey hey, baby give it to me, don't play-play
She was like O.K K K
Started clapping her ass to ay bey bey, ay bey bey, ay bey bey
She told me that her mamas latin, dads asian
Abuela esta loca, abuelos hatian
Y yo soy cubano and I'm impatient
So do me a favor, lets skip conversation
I just wanna taste ya ASAP
Take ya ASAP, to the room ASAP
Zoom zoom ASAP, boom boom take that
OOOHH I like that!
When you fight that!
[Chorus x1]
See you with your heels, sexy shirt
I See you with your man, youu threw me a smirk
You See me with your girls, you started to flirt
Back of the club, hand up her skirt
Hand full of ass, I'm trying to hold on
Girls gone wild, all night long
She had no bra, and no thong
One more shot, baby its on (lets go)
She's a wild thing, and she loves to do wild things
So we did the wild thing, I'm a freak but I aint gon' lie
That thing was fine man, everybody say...
[Chorus x1]
[Lil Jon:]
Get nasty, get freaky, you sexy, you fine
Get nasty, get freaky, you sexy, you fine
Go go go go girl
Go go go girl
Go go go girl
Go go go girl
Shake your ass to the beat, shake your ass to the beat
Shake your ass to the beat, shake your ass to the beat
Hey!
[Chorus x1]
[Lil Jon:]
Take it to the flo' now
Yo te doy lo tuyo
Ahora, dame lo mio
Yo te doy lo tuyo
Ahora, dame lo mio
Yo te doy lo tuyo
Ahora, dame lo mio (let's go now)
Yo te doy lo tuyo
Ahora, dame lo mio (hey hey hey, lets go ladies)
quarta-feira, 2 de abril de 2008
segunda-feira, 31 de março de 2008
He was thinking of me (29/3/2008 2:39 am)
This is something a very special "friend" wrote me
(29/3/2008 2:39 am)
"Don't mind me.
Just writing in regards to something a friend is going through.
Our lives are in a constant flux. In the blink of an eye our lives can be flipped on end, our very existence shattered.
I wrote in a previous post about being self-destructive. What I didn't get into was why.
My girlfriend was pregant with my baby. 6 months. One night she went out with friends and as she sat in the car waiting for one to come out, gunfire ripped through the car killing her and the baby.
It took me a long time to recover from that. You already know a part of what happened , how I chose to deal with it.
To this day I'm distant with people. I want closeness, but when the closeness comes I move away from it. I'm sure its due to the fear of loss, but as I am aware I'm damaged goods...but being aware of it gives me the advantage of not deluding myself as to what I am...and what I am not.
I work 16 hours days.
I work 16 hour days because I have two younger sisters in colleges that my parents cannot afford. While my plan is not to fund their whole way through college I feel its important for them to acclimate to college life, to not just be thrown into the fire. It's the real reason why I don't drive a new car, or blow lots of money on trivial things. Why I limit myself to the few perks I truly want. I went from living a fairly care-free life , to suddenly having a daunting financial responsibilty. It forced me to have a complete change of life. Forced is not the right word.
Chose is not the right word either.
I want them to finish school, I don't want them to be overwhelmed by work and study. Eventually they will have to fly on their own, but for now...
I fall asleep easily on the days that I work. One of the changes that came was the ability to focus on what I needed to do. Like get enough rest to be able to work. At one point my only goal was to exist. A story for another day. I'm falling asleep now, but I feel the need to write. I will regret it tomorrow. Only for a minute though. Then I will continue on my way. When I'm off I lay awake, consumed by thoughts of my past.
Consumed ...but not controlled.
Some people call it reflection.
I feel overwhelmed by these things.
Overwhelmed but not burdened.
No one can tell us how to grieve loss. No one can predict when their life will change. No one can tell us it will get better. We just cannot believe it.
It does though.
It's exactly why my life is simple.
The world does not hate me.
It's not out to get me.
My girfriend...I remember the love I felt.
My child...I imagine the love I would have.
I smile when I write those checks, knowing that my sisters are moving towards bright futures.So I enjoy my work, and the sun on my face, and the music in my ears.
Life...no matter what it throws at us ...moves on. Each and every one of us has to learn how to move along with it. At our own pace. In our own time.
Would hearing these words help you? I don't know. Really, I don't need to know. I do know that I feel your pain, as closely as I feel my own. It's not what I wrote, or that I wrote it for you, but that I wrote it at all that is important.
Pain reminds us that what we lost was loved. It reminds us that what WE ourselves felt was real.
It reminds us that we are alive.
So close your eyes. Feel the breeze on your face. Remember their smiles. Their warmth.
Remember those around us. Those we can still touch and talk to and help.
Don't let yourself fall into dismay. Remember there is always a way to survive, exist and to overcome.
Remember yourself.
Goodnight."
Sometimes we find special friends even when we are not looking for them...
...I saw his profile, what a nice pic! Wow Damn he is hot!
So I winked at him. Wait! A reply to my "flirting", an e-mail that says "Hi, sup girl!". I read some blog entries and thats it! He is awesome! He is not just hot, he is definitely not just a peace of meat, he got brains and a beatiful smile! He knows how to touch me just with words, he seems to know me deep inside and that scares me, "alot" (as he would say-write). So I think, gosh he must have tons of girls running after him, I must be # 142.564.759.588 right there at the end of the line lol. So we started to chat, just a "Hi, how are you" kinda talk at first, but shortly after the first couple of lines we were conected...totally conected! Then they came, the "all night long" conversations, we got closer, we laugh, we shared memories, experiences, pain, confessions, advices...
we shared...shared...shared...
I love that! I need that! I want that!!!!
And as he would say "I want closeness"
Is he just a friend now???
Helllllllllllllll NO!!!
Bring me the future...
I am looking forward....
I L... U daddy!
F.
(29/3/2008 2:39 am)
"Don't mind me.
Just writing in regards to something a friend is going through.
Our lives are in a constant flux. In the blink of an eye our lives can be flipped on end, our very existence shattered.
I wrote in a previous post about being self-destructive. What I didn't get into was why.
My girlfriend was pregant with my baby. 6 months. One night she went out with friends and as she sat in the car waiting for one to come out, gunfire ripped through the car killing her and the baby.
It took me a long time to recover from that. You already know a part of what happened , how I chose to deal with it.
To this day I'm distant with people. I want closeness, but when the closeness comes I move away from it. I'm sure its due to the fear of loss, but as I am aware I'm damaged goods...but being aware of it gives me the advantage of not deluding myself as to what I am...and what I am not.
I work 16 hours days.
I work 16 hour days because I have two younger sisters in colleges that my parents cannot afford. While my plan is not to fund their whole way through college I feel its important for them to acclimate to college life, to not just be thrown into the fire. It's the real reason why I don't drive a new car, or blow lots of money on trivial things. Why I limit myself to the few perks I truly want. I went from living a fairly care-free life , to suddenly having a daunting financial responsibilty. It forced me to have a complete change of life. Forced is not the right word.
Chose is not the right word either.
I want them to finish school, I don't want them to be overwhelmed by work and study. Eventually they will have to fly on their own, but for now...
I fall asleep easily on the days that I work. One of the changes that came was the ability to focus on what I needed to do. Like get enough rest to be able to work. At one point my only goal was to exist. A story for another day. I'm falling asleep now, but I feel the need to write. I will regret it tomorrow. Only for a minute though. Then I will continue on my way. When I'm off I lay awake, consumed by thoughts of my past.
Consumed ...but not controlled.
Some people call it reflection.
I feel overwhelmed by these things.
Overwhelmed but not burdened.
No one can tell us how to grieve loss. No one can predict when their life will change. No one can tell us it will get better. We just cannot believe it.
It does though.
It's exactly why my life is simple.
The world does not hate me.
It's not out to get me.
My girfriend...I remember the love I felt.
My child...I imagine the love I would have.
I smile when I write those checks, knowing that my sisters are moving towards bright futures.So I enjoy my work, and the sun on my face, and the music in my ears.
Life...no matter what it throws at us ...moves on. Each and every one of us has to learn how to move along with it. At our own pace. In our own time.
Would hearing these words help you? I don't know. Really, I don't need to know. I do know that I feel your pain, as closely as I feel my own. It's not what I wrote, or that I wrote it for you, but that I wrote it at all that is important.
Pain reminds us that what we lost was loved. It reminds us that what WE ourselves felt was real.
It reminds us that we are alive.
So close your eyes. Feel the breeze on your face. Remember their smiles. Their warmth.
Remember those around us. Those we can still touch and talk to and help.
Don't let yourself fall into dismay. Remember there is always a way to survive, exist and to overcome.
Remember yourself.
Goodnight."
Sometimes we find special friends even when we are not looking for them...
...I saw his profile, what a nice pic! Wow Damn he is hot!
So I winked at him. Wait! A reply to my "flirting", an e-mail that says "Hi, sup girl!". I read some blog entries and thats it! He is awesome! He is not just hot, he is definitely not just a peace of meat, he got brains and a beatiful smile! He knows how to touch me just with words, he seems to know me deep inside and that scares me, "alot" (as he would say-write). So I think, gosh he must have tons of girls running after him, I must be # 142.564.759.588 right there at the end of the line lol. So we started to chat, just a "Hi, how are you" kinda talk at first, but shortly after the first couple of lines we were conected...totally conected! Then they came, the "all night long" conversations, we got closer, we laugh, we shared memories, experiences, pain, confessions, advices...
we shared...shared...shared...
I love that! I need that! I want that!!!!
And as he would say "I want closeness"
Is he just a friend now???
Helllllllllllllll NO!!!
Bring me the future...
I am looking forward....
I L... U daddy!
F.
quarta-feira, 12 de março de 2008
Donnie J - So Over U lyrics
Donnie J - So Over U lyrics
I shoulda been stronger, when you left me baby,
I just didn't see it comin, (no)
You shoulda waited longer, we coulda worked it out,
I know eats you up inside, Now when you call the phone,
Tellin me, basically you still love me I,
Cant believe your unbelievable,
[Chorus]
Cuz I never really new it was endin,
But I shoulda seen it from the beginin,
When I use to be so independent,
Then all I did was think of you,
Girl you know I coulda showed ya,
Gonna keep head high on my shoulders
I'm better off now that it's over,
And I'm not gonna think of you,
Cuz I'm so over U, I'm so over U, I'm so over U yeah…
I'm so over U, I'm so over U, I'm so over U, yeah…
I shoulda known better, shoulda seen right through,
It was all about the chase, baby
Now I'm a little wiser, cuz of girls like you,
I learned from my mistake,
Now I can go out every night enjoy myself without the fight,
Sayin no more, no more sleepless nights…
[Chorus]
I use to wanna know, why'd you go an break my heart, like we never meant a think at all
Times made me wise, no I didn't believe it when they told me, that I'd get over U…
[Chorus]
Song lyrics | So Over U lyrics
Donnie J - Easier Said Than Done lyrics
Donnie J - Easier Said Than Done lyrics
I know you don't like hearing this
But I feel like we're making a huge mistake
Well. Maybe it's too late, you know
Maybe I should just let you go..listen,
Boy meets girl, girl likes boy
It was your typical story, but I
Was hard to get, I made you wait
And you kept your eye on the prize
And it paid off 'cause we found love
And everything fit like a glove
Perfect…or so it seemed to be to me
Tell me is this worth it
Girl, nobody is perfect
So what, so what am I supposed to do when
Every time I try to walk away
There's always something that reminds me I should stay, yeah
Girl I know I should be strong
But girl it feels so wrong, holding on
It's so much easier said than done
We spent some time when you were mine
Tell me where it all went
You promised me, you'd never leave
Do you break all your promises?
Just like you broke my heart so easily
Saying you love me was just a tease to me
I wanted the real thing but you lost the feeling for me
And now, is this worth it
When we're both hurting
I know you can't hide it from yourself
And now every time you try to walk away (now every time you try)
There's always something that reminds you of my face (oh baby yeah)
You know you should be strong (you can be strong)
But you feel so wrong, moving on without me, on without me
Is easier said than done
I know we've had our ups and downs
You need some time alone
Maybe it's best we go our own ways
But it's so hard
And now every time I try to walk away (every time I try to walk away)
There's something that reminds me I should stay (oh yeah)
I know I should be strong
But girl, I feel so wrong
Moving on without you, on without you
Oh it's easier said than done
Song lyrics | Easier Said Than Done lyrics
THROUGH THE PAIN
P. DIDDY (PUFF DADDY)- THROUGH THE PAIN (SHE TOLD ME) (FEAT. MARIO WINANS)
[Diddy:]
Can You Feel Me?
Can You Touch Me?
Can You Trust Me?
Can You Love Me?
I Need You
Rio...Talk To Em'
[Mario:]
I Could Tell How You Doubted Me
I Knew My Heart Was Broken
And So Empty
Even Though My Girl Was Next To Me
She Didn't See
I Do Believe
That You Wanna Come By
Rescue Me
If You Read My Mind
I Have Set You A Place
I Wonder If I'll Just Will Be
In Time We'll See
She Told Me
She Told Me
She Showed Me
But She Hurt Me
Yet She Loved Me The Same
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain?
[Diddy:]
...Yeah
When I Don't Wanna Feel This Way ( This Way )
I Got Too Many Bills To Pay ( To Pay )
I'm Hanging On Patrone All Day ( Aye )
Mind In A Maze ( Maze)
Blowing On Shit
I Can't Function
It Gotta Be Something ( Go Ahead )
That You Doing
That Got Me Unconscious ( Aye)
All This Money This Fame This Fire
How Could I Feel This Empty Inside? ( Talk To 'Em)
[Mario:]
I've Been Thinking 'Bout Giving Up ( Can't Give Up)
But There's Something Inside Me That's Holding On
When We Don't Know Who's Right Or Wrong
We Still Stay Strong
Keep Movin' On ( Don't Stop )
And I Promise I Will Never Leave
Now Would You Do The Same For Me?
I Wonder If I'll Just Will Be
In Time We'll See
She Told Me
She Told Me
She Showed Me
But She Hurt Me
Yet She Loved Me The Same
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain?
[Diddy:]
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Fine As Hell
Fly Chanel ( So Fly )
But Will It Last?
Only Time Will Tell ( Only Time )
Love Is Real
And What I Mean Is
There's Not Enough Words To Explain The Meaning ( C'mon )
And What I'm Saying Is
All I Need Is For You To Understand
How Beautiful She Is ( She Is )
And All It Takes Is A Little Faith
And No Matter The Situation
Is My Heart You'll Stay
[Mario:]
I'll Always Be Your Friend
You'll Always Be My Girl ( I'll Always Love You)
I'll Never Let It End
For Nothing In The World ( You'll Never Stop Me )
'Cause No One Else Can Do
The Things You Do ( No One Else Do The Things )
You Make Me Feel (You Make Me Feel)
So Warm And New
So Would You Stay With Me? (She Told Me)
She Told Me (She Showed Me)
She Showed Me (But She Hurt)
But She Hurt Me (Yet She Loved Me)
Yet She Loved Me The Same (All The Same)
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
(Has Anybody...Ever Made You Feel That Way?)
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain? (Could You?)
Thank You For Showing Me How To Love
Thank You For Showing Me
Girl You Mean The World To Me
Just A Little More Than I Can See
Breaks Us Down
We'd Stay Together
Only We Can Hustle Who Ever
Would You Come And Go With Me
To Fulfilled Our Fantasies
Take Me By My Hand My Dear
Promise Me You Won't Have No Fear
She Told Me ( She Showed Me )
She Showed Me ( But She Hurt Me )
But She Hurt Me ( Yet She Loved Me )
And She Loved Me The Same ( All The Same )
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
(Has Anybody...Ever Made You Feel That Way?)
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain? (Could You?)
[Diddy:]
Can You Feel Me?
Can You Touch Me?
Can You Trust Me?
Can You Love Me?
I Need You
Rio...Talk To Em'
[Mario:]
I Could Tell How You Doubted Me
I Knew My Heart Was Broken
And So Empty
Even Though My Girl Was Next To Me
She Didn't See
I Do Believe
That You Wanna Come By
Rescue Me
If You Read My Mind
I Have Set You A Place
I Wonder If I'll Just Will Be
In Time We'll See
She Told Me
She Told Me
She Showed Me
But She Hurt Me
Yet She Loved Me The Same
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain?
[Diddy:]
...Yeah
When I Don't Wanna Feel This Way ( This Way )
I Got Too Many Bills To Pay ( To Pay )
I'm Hanging On Patrone All Day ( Aye )
Mind In A Maze ( Maze)
Blowing On Shit
I Can't Function
It Gotta Be Something ( Go Ahead )
That You Doing
That Got Me Unconscious ( Aye)
All This Money This Fame This Fire
How Could I Feel This Empty Inside? ( Talk To 'Em)
[Mario:]
I've Been Thinking 'Bout Giving Up ( Can't Give Up)
But There's Something Inside Me That's Holding On
When We Don't Know Who's Right Or Wrong
We Still Stay Strong
Keep Movin' On ( Don't Stop )
And I Promise I Will Never Leave
Now Would You Do The Same For Me?
I Wonder If I'll Just Will Be
In Time We'll See
She Told Me
She Told Me
She Showed Me
But She Hurt Me
Yet She Loved Me The Same
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain?
[Diddy:]
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Fine As Hell
Fly Chanel ( So Fly )
But Will It Last?
Only Time Will Tell ( Only Time )
Love Is Real
And What I Mean Is
There's Not Enough Words To Explain The Meaning ( C'mon )
And What I'm Saying Is
All I Need Is For You To Understand
How Beautiful She Is ( She Is )
And All It Takes Is A Little Faith
And No Matter The Situation
Is My Heart You'll Stay
[Mario:]
I'll Always Be Your Friend
You'll Always Be My Girl ( I'll Always Love You)
I'll Never Let It End
For Nothing In The World ( You'll Never Stop Me )
'Cause No One Else Can Do
The Things You Do ( No One Else Do The Things )
You Make Me Feel (You Make Me Feel)
So Warm And New
So Would You Stay With Me? (She Told Me)
She Told Me (She Showed Me)
She Showed Me (But She Hurt)
But She Hurt Me (Yet She Loved Me)
Yet She Loved Me The Same (All The Same)
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
(Has Anybody...Ever Made You Feel That Way?)
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain? (Could You?)
Thank You For Showing Me How To Love
Thank You For Showing Me
Girl You Mean The World To Me
Just A Little More Than I Can See
Breaks Us Down
We'd Stay Together
Only We Can Hustle Who Ever
Would You Come And Go With Me
To Fulfilled Our Fantasies
Take Me By My Hand My Dear
Promise Me You Won't Have No Fear
She Told Me ( She Showed Me )
She Showed Me ( But She Hurt Me )
But She Hurt Me ( Yet She Loved Me )
And She Loved Me The Same ( All The Same )
Has Anybody Ever Made You Feel That Way?
(Has Anybody...Ever Made You Feel That Way?)
Could You Really Love Her Through The Pain? (Could You?)
terça-feira, 11 de março de 2008
I needed to write....
For years, I avoided any kind of relationship like the plague.
I suffered to much at the "loving field". Well, this went on for years but I am definitely not the "feel sorry for me" kinda girl! I'm a fighter and I'm happy to say that I finally got over it to enjoy a couple of wonderful relationships. I've been with ,not much but, some of the most wonderful guys and I feel honored to have known them and still know many of them (although not intimately).
"Hey! Wait a minute...If they were that good why you are not with them anymore?" Because only friendship does NOT make a relationship better or successful. I need more than a friend. Yeah, for years I avoid a serious relationship but then This guy showed up im my life...I was feeling alone, in a different country, with different people, a different family, different language...yeah, it was new but its was a hard time as well...and then I met him! I was done avoing...hiding...runnig from something I thought it would be real...something I always wanted soooo bad.
He was one of the most hottest black men I could ever dream about. Every girl I have had showed his pic and myspace profile wanted a piece of him. He was the one that had all the girl's heads turn when I was online chatting with him....while they said, "Damn, who is that gorgeous black guy? Where is he going tonight?" Yes! I had my grilfriends having lil crushes on him.
Well, back then I just wanted to be his friend...I was in need of a friend badly. But right at the beginning I realize he couldn't be just a friend for me....I wanted more from him. I was smart, or so I thought I was, I knew better than to drool. I kept my head over my shoulders when I met him. I thought I was ready to take things slowly and see how everything would pan out. But I wasn't smart! I fell in love so fast....sooooooooo fast!!!
Friendship is where we started. It was the basis of our union.Our friendship was so strong and impotant to me that I couldn't bare the thought of not trying everything and anything possible to make it work...He was my movie buddy, my best friend, and then I realized he was more than a friend to me and that I wanted more than to be just a friend to him.
I got tired of hearing people say how important friendship is. I have tons of friends and few good ones and I wanted to have a life partner as well and that includes future planning, fun, acceptance, trust, dreams, and of course intimacy and sex. And we had it all!!!We became great friends and later lovers. Great lovers! The nights were short for us back then. A black guy and a brazilian girl...goodness! What a hot combination!!!
But life sux and I had to leave US...Hell that hurted so bad! I couldn't look back. I didnt want him to see me crying. In fact I didn't think he loved me enough or at least the same way to ask me to stay. I felt like I was falling fast in a deep hole. My heart was broken into a million pieces. At first the distance was the problem! It was hard as hell because we were far away from each other...but life is cruel sometimes and a lot of shit happened after I left! His Big Brother passed away...then my best friend died as well. At the same time I learned I was pregnat and that I've had lost the baby. My mom had to have surgery to fix a problem on her heart. I haven’t find a job, so I had no money... I was too emotional, sad and moody. Out of that I didn’t know what to do about us. I felt like I was at the road alone.It was driving me crazy! I was feeling neglected - forgotten - nothing - a peace of shit!! He was having a hard time over there as well and I felt like he didn't care about me and my problems at all. My world had been turned upside down. My aunt passed away and my mom was in the hospital. My life was falling apart right before my eyes! I was crying a lot because all of my own problems, his problems, and ours problems as a couple. It was a really tough time to both of us. He needed things to be about him in a time that I needed things to be about me. Unfortunately I couldn’t hide my feelings and my problems forever just to help him out because I wasn’t in a good time in my life either. In fact, I needed him to be there for me as well. Besides all the problems we were having there was the fact that I didn’t even know when I would be able to come back to the States. So I was hoping we could make things work between us because the physical distance was already to hard to deal with.
We decided to give us a try and he told me about his dreams of having a partner in life, that he wanted us "to be a team...to back each other up...to grown old together". We both knew getting there was hard…but we both agreed it was not impossible. But I was the only one trying to work on us.I even tried to fit myself into “His idea” of how I should act but I couldn’t live like that. I needed to be as natural as I could to be ok with myself. I couldn’t lose touch with the integrity that guides my life. I was felling like my feelings were sinking into the shadows and I was afraid that circumstances were working against me as well…against us
We've had to work hard to keep us together!!! My Dad says, "A relationship is something you work at. You don't just get up and run out when it gets tough." I agreed with him and still do. Relationships - any type of one - take work and effort, and anything can be overcome. So I tried! I have a major "flaw" and it is my patience and trust. I trust and believe on him since the very beginning as well as had a great level of patience with his "pushing me away...cutting me off...its not your business way" of loving me. I communicated with him openly and honestly about my feelings - my bestfriend would've been proud of me. I read books to learn more about what I could do or say, I made constant attempts in using what I was learning from these books, I sought counseling and went on my own, I consulted with friends and family looking everywhere for answers.
Well.... I got the answers. I know now I was working hard on a "one way" reltionship! His "approach" was much much different than mine...Well I better say that wasnt an approach...whatever he said he was trying did not help at all and It wouldn't unless it was followed up with actions which was NOT the case. He refused my suggestions - yes many - for us to seek for an away to make the distance smaller somehow. He accused me of not being understandble...of being a drama queen...maybe I was. He also wasted all the excuses he could have had with me to defend himself of being cold, and not there for me in my times of need. I kept secrets (stuff that I didn’t even tell him because he had his own problems to deal with already).I cryied...I suffered...I spent sleepless nights thinking about what I could have done wrong...Needless to say, being culturally different was a problem as well. We got off to a very rocky start that didn't get any smoother with time and my own work.
Well, now I am sure there was a reason to be back in Brazil and I will focus on that. I will focus on my family…I will focus on me. I will take my eyes off the others things and people in my life and find comfort in being myself. Right now it seems I need to sort out my own feelings about what Faby wants, not what Faby and a partner wants. I need to be happy alone before I can truly give love to someone else. Right now, I will just love me and my parents. I will make them the most important people in my life. As hard as my life is right now, I will learn to be me, only me, an uncompromised me. I won't bend to what others want me to be. How people want me to act. I know what is right and as hard as it will be to let go of you now I need to do it.
I always thought that living in another country, getting to know another language, people, having a brand new family and friends would be a great way to mark big changes in my life, but now I can definitely be sure of that. My time in US draws a line in time between the time before and the time after. I'll never be the same girl my parents droped at the Airport on June 2005 to live in Naperville. Back then I wasn’t happy. I was searching for so many things, I wanted to work, I wanted to be independent, I wanted to learn about everything. I wanted to get to know a whole new world but more than get to know about the American way of life I learned about myself -- the trip was bigger inside myself than anything else. The end of 2007 and the beginning of 2008 made me think a lot about myself, my choices in life, what is important, what makes me happy, what makes me sad... Life is short…too short and I wanna be happy again. Now I have come to understand that I won’t be the same ever again...there’s no way…no way...I can be the same old me again.
I suffered to much at the "loving field". Well, this went on for years but I am definitely not the "feel sorry for me" kinda girl! I'm a fighter and I'm happy to say that I finally got over it to enjoy a couple of wonderful relationships. I've been with ,not much but, some of the most wonderful guys and I feel honored to have known them and still know many of them (although not intimately).
"Hey! Wait a minute...If they were that good why you are not with them anymore?" Because only friendship does NOT make a relationship better or successful. I need more than a friend. Yeah, for years I avoid a serious relationship but then This guy showed up im my life...I was feeling alone, in a different country, with different people, a different family, different language...yeah, it was new but its was a hard time as well...and then I met him! I was done avoing...hiding...runnig from something I thought it would be real...something I always wanted soooo bad.
He was one of the most hottest black men I could ever dream about. Every girl I have had showed his pic and myspace profile wanted a piece of him. He was the one that had all the girl's heads turn when I was online chatting with him....while they said, "Damn, who is that gorgeous black guy? Where is he going tonight?" Yes! I had my grilfriends having lil crushes on him.
Well, back then I just wanted to be his friend...I was in need of a friend badly. But right at the beginning I realize he couldn't be just a friend for me....I wanted more from him. I was smart, or so I thought I was, I knew better than to drool. I kept my head over my shoulders when I met him. I thought I was ready to take things slowly and see how everything would pan out. But I wasn't smart! I fell in love so fast....sooooooooo fast!!!
Friendship is where we started. It was the basis of our union.Our friendship was so strong and impotant to me that I couldn't bare the thought of not trying everything and anything possible to make it work...He was my movie buddy, my best friend, and then I realized he was more than a friend to me and that I wanted more than to be just a friend to him.
I got tired of hearing people say how important friendship is. I have tons of friends and few good ones and I wanted to have a life partner as well and that includes future planning, fun, acceptance, trust, dreams, and of course intimacy and sex. And we had it all!!!We became great friends and later lovers. Great lovers! The nights were short for us back then. A black guy and a brazilian girl...goodness! What a hot combination!!!
But life sux and I had to leave US...Hell that hurted so bad! I couldn't look back. I didnt want him to see me crying. In fact I didn't think he loved me enough or at least the same way to ask me to stay. I felt like I was falling fast in a deep hole. My heart was broken into a million pieces. At first the distance was the problem! It was hard as hell because we were far away from each other...but life is cruel sometimes and a lot of shit happened after I left! His Big Brother passed away...then my best friend died as well. At the same time I learned I was pregnat and that I've had lost the baby. My mom had to have surgery to fix a problem on her heart. I haven’t find a job, so I had no money... I was too emotional, sad and moody. Out of that I didn’t know what to do about us. I felt like I was at the road alone.It was driving me crazy! I was feeling neglected - forgotten - nothing - a peace of shit!! He was having a hard time over there as well and I felt like he didn't care about me and my problems at all. My world had been turned upside down. My aunt passed away and my mom was in the hospital. My life was falling apart right before my eyes! I was crying a lot because all of my own problems, his problems, and ours problems as a couple. It was a really tough time to both of us. He needed things to be about him in a time that I needed things to be about me. Unfortunately I couldn’t hide my feelings and my problems forever just to help him out because I wasn’t in a good time in my life either. In fact, I needed him to be there for me as well. Besides all the problems we were having there was the fact that I didn’t even know when I would be able to come back to the States. So I was hoping we could make things work between us because the physical distance was already to hard to deal with.
We decided to give us a try and he told me about his dreams of having a partner in life, that he wanted us "to be a team...to back each other up...to grown old together". We both knew getting there was hard…but we both agreed it was not impossible. But I was the only one trying to work on us.I even tried to fit myself into “His idea” of how I should act but I couldn’t live like that. I needed to be as natural as I could to be ok with myself. I couldn’t lose touch with the integrity that guides my life. I was felling like my feelings were sinking into the shadows and I was afraid that circumstances were working against me as well…against us
We've had to work hard to keep us together!!! My Dad says, "A relationship is something you work at. You don't just get up and run out when it gets tough." I agreed with him and still do. Relationships - any type of one - take work and effort, and anything can be overcome. So I tried! I have a major "flaw" and it is my patience and trust. I trust and believe on him since the very beginning as well as had a great level of patience with his "pushing me away...cutting me off...its not your business way" of loving me. I communicated with him openly and honestly about my feelings - my bestfriend would've been proud of me. I read books to learn more about what I could do or say, I made constant attempts in using what I was learning from these books, I sought counseling and went on my own, I consulted with friends and family looking everywhere for answers.
Well.... I got the answers. I know now I was working hard on a "one way" reltionship! His "approach" was much much different than mine...Well I better say that wasnt an approach...whatever he said he was trying did not help at all and It wouldn't unless it was followed up with actions which was NOT the case. He refused my suggestions - yes many - for us to seek for an away to make the distance smaller somehow. He accused me of not being understandble...of being a drama queen...maybe I was. He also wasted all the excuses he could have had with me to defend himself of being cold, and not there for me in my times of need. I kept secrets (stuff that I didn’t even tell him because he had his own problems to deal with already).I cryied...I suffered...I spent sleepless nights thinking about what I could have done wrong...Needless to say, being culturally different was a problem as well. We got off to a very rocky start that didn't get any smoother with time and my own work.
Well, now I am sure there was a reason to be back in Brazil and I will focus on that. I will focus on my family…I will focus on me. I will take my eyes off the others things and people in my life and find comfort in being myself. Right now it seems I need to sort out my own feelings about what Faby wants, not what Faby and a partner wants. I need to be happy alone before I can truly give love to someone else. Right now, I will just love me and my parents. I will make them the most important people in my life. As hard as my life is right now, I will learn to be me, only me, an uncompromised me. I won't bend to what others want me to be. How people want me to act. I know what is right and as hard as it will be to let go of you now I need to do it.
I always thought that living in another country, getting to know another language, people, having a brand new family and friends would be a great way to mark big changes in my life, but now I can definitely be sure of that. My time in US draws a line in time between the time before and the time after. I'll never be the same girl my parents droped at the Airport on June 2005 to live in Naperville. Back then I wasn’t happy. I was searching for so many things, I wanted to work, I wanted to be independent, I wanted to learn about everything. I wanted to get to know a whole new world but more than get to know about the American way of life I learned about myself -- the trip was bigger inside myself than anything else. The end of 2007 and the beginning of 2008 made me think a lot about myself, my choices in life, what is important, what makes me happy, what makes me sad... Life is short…too short and I wanna be happy again. Now I have come to understand that I won’t be the same ever again...there’s no way…no way...I can be the same old me again.
terça-feira, 4 de março de 2008
Kelly Clarkson Walk Away Lyrics
Walk Away Lyrics
You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know the situation's getting older
now the more you talk
The less I can take, oh
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Kelly Clarkson Addicted Lyrics
Addicted
It's like you're a drug.
It's like you're a demon I can't face down.
It's like I'm stuck.
It's like I'm running from you all the time.
And I know I let you have all the power.
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around.
It's like you're a leech,
Sucking the life from me.
It's like I can't breathe,
Without you inside of me.
And I know I let you have all the power.
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think,
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me,
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm lost.
It's like I'm giving up slowly.
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me.
Leave me alone.
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone.
And I know I'll never change my ways if I don't give you up now.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe.)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe.)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think.
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm not me.
I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can take it.
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.
I'll handle it, quit it,
Just one more time,
Then that's it.
Just a little bit more to get me through this.
I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can take it,
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.
I'll handle it, quit it,
Just one more time,
Then that's it,
Just a little bit more to get me through this.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think,
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm not me.
It's like you're a drug.
It's like you're a demon I can't face down.
It's like I'm stuck.
It's like I'm running from you all the time.
And I know I let you have all the power.
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around.
It's like you're a leech,
Sucking the life from me.
It's like I can't breathe,
Without you inside of me.
And I know I let you have all the power.
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think,
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me,
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm lost.
It's like I'm giving up slowly.
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me.
Leave me alone.
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone.
And I know I'll never change my ways if I don't give you up now.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe.)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe.)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think.
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm not me.
I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can take it.
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.
I'll handle it, quit it,
Just one more time,
Then that's it.
Just a little bit more to get me through this.
I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can take it,
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.
I'll handle it, quit it,
Just one more time,
Then that's it,
Just a little bit more to get me through this.
It's like I can't breathe.
(It's like I can't breathe)
It's like I can't see anything.
Nothing but you.
(It's like I can't breathe)
I'm addicted to you.
It's like I can't think,
(It's like I'm not me)
Without you interrupting me.
In my thoughts,
(In my thoughts)
In my dreams,
(In my dreams)
You've taken over me.
It's like I'm not me.
It's like I'm not me.
quarta-feira, 27 de fevereiro de 2008
segunda-feira, 25 de fevereiro de 2008
I’ve been ranting and raving about Jason Reitman’s new film, Juno. You’ve probably already heard me claim that it’s the best film of the year so far, or even “this year’s Little Miss Sunshine”. That the script, soundtrack, and performances are all top notch. And now you can see the film for yourself (or at least the trailer). While the trailer gives you a good idea what the movie is about (and even features some of the aforementioned great tunes), I think it undersells the film quite a bit (compared to my obvious oversell).
"Ellen Page stars as Juno (also the film’s title), a whip-smart teen confronting an unplanned pregnancy by her classmate Bleeker (Michael Cera). With the help of her hot best friend Leah (Olivia Thirlby), Juno finds her unborn child a “perfect” set of parents: an affluent suburban couple, Mark and Vanessa (Jason Bateman and Jennifer Garner), longing to adopt. Luckily, Juno has the total support of her parents (JK Simmons and Allison Janney) as she faces some tough decisions, flirts with adulthood and ultimately figures out where she belongs."
“Juno” seems to be like a younger version of “Knocked Up,” except less cynical and with more pathos — the laughs seems to be sweeter. Plus, the solutions are realistic and it looks like the pain is real...c’mon, how many hundreds of movies in the world have dealt with pregnancy? Call it a ripoff of “A Summer Place (1959)” then!!!
Not only is Juno one of the best movies of the year, but it also has one of the best movie soundtracks of the last five years. It’s kind of like a Wes Anderson film in the way that it will expose you to a whole new compilation of music (and more specifically Kimya Dawson’s indie folk punk tunes). Yes, the music tends to skew to a younger audience, so if you’re over 40 this might not be your thing. I’m not sure is Wes Anderson’s soundtracks are a good comparison, Garden State might be a better example.
The director Jason Reitman said that Ellen Page had a lot to do with the sound of the film.
“At one point, I asked Ellen Page before we started shooting, ‘what do you think Juno listens to?’ And she said ‘The Moldy Peaches’. She went on my computer, played the songs, and I fell in love with it. Diablo and I discussed putting a Moldy Peaches song in it where the characters would sing to each other. I got in touch with Kimya Dawson of The Moldy Peaches and she started sending me her work, which was beautiful, and that became a lot of the soundtrack.”
Singer/Songwriter Kimya Dawson writes the following on her live journal:
“Some of those songs were recorded in my bed in Bedford Hills, under the covers, on the 4-track. And when people were coming up to me telling me I did a great job it felt weird because I didn’t do a job. I wrote a bunch of crap when my heart was hurting. Everyone else had to do a job. The songs were already there. Just floating around in space. I didn’t do anything specifically FOR the movie. Except record some instrumental versions of a couple songs that only have two chords. That was easy. so, yeah…”
“Anyone Else But You”
Performed by The Moldy Peaches
ALSO performed by Ellen Page and Michael Cera
“Tire Swing”
“My Rollercoaster”
“So Nice So Smart”
“I Like Giants”
“Reminders of Then”
“12/26″
“Loose Lips”
Written and Performed by Kimya Dawson
“Tree Hugger”
“Sleep”
Performed by Kimya Dawson and Antsy Pants
“Once I Loved”
Performed by Astrud Gilberto
“All I Want Is You”
Written and Performed by: Barry Louis Polisar
“Besame Mucho”
Performed by: Trio Los Panchos
“A Well Respected Man”
Performed by The Kinks
“Doll Parts”
Written by Courtney Love
Preformed by ??????
“I’m Sticking With You”
Preformed by The Velvet Underground
“Dearest”
Performed by Buddy Holly
“Why Bother”
Performed by tHe drop
“Superstar”
Performed by Sonic Youth
“Piazza, New York Catcher”
“Expectations”
Performed by Belle & Sebastian
“All the Young Dudes”
Performed by Mott The Hoople
“Sea of Love”
Performed by Cat Power
“Vampire”
Performed by Antsy Pants
"Ellen Page stars as Juno (also the film’s title), a whip-smart teen confronting an unplanned pregnancy by her classmate Bleeker (Michael Cera). With the help of her hot best friend Leah (Olivia Thirlby), Juno finds her unborn child a “perfect” set of parents: an affluent suburban couple, Mark and Vanessa (Jason Bateman and Jennifer Garner), longing to adopt. Luckily, Juno has the total support of her parents (JK Simmons and Allison Janney) as she faces some tough decisions, flirts with adulthood and ultimately figures out where she belongs."
“Juno” seems to be like a younger version of “Knocked Up,” except less cynical and with more pathos — the laughs seems to be sweeter. Plus, the solutions are realistic and it looks like the pain is real...c’mon, how many hundreds of movies in the world have dealt with pregnancy? Call it a ripoff of “A Summer Place (1959)” then!!!
Not only is Juno one of the best movies of the year, but it also has one of the best movie soundtracks of the last five years. It’s kind of like a Wes Anderson film in the way that it will expose you to a whole new compilation of music (and more specifically Kimya Dawson’s indie folk punk tunes). Yes, the music tends to skew to a younger audience, so if you’re over 40 this might not be your thing. I’m not sure is Wes Anderson’s soundtracks are a good comparison, Garden State might be a better example.
The director Jason Reitman said that Ellen Page had a lot to do with the sound of the film.
“At one point, I asked Ellen Page before we started shooting, ‘what do you think Juno listens to?’ And she said ‘The Moldy Peaches’. She went on my computer, played the songs, and I fell in love with it. Diablo and I discussed putting a Moldy Peaches song in it where the characters would sing to each other. I got in touch with Kimya Dawson of The Moldy Peaches and she started sending me her work, which was beautiful, and that became a lot of the soundtrack.”
Singer/Songwriter Kimya Dawson writes the following on her live journal:
“Some of those songs were recorded in my bed in Bedford Hills, under the covers, on the 4-track. And when people were coming up to me telling me I did a great job it felt weird because I didn’t do a job. I wrote a bunch of crap when my heart was hurting. Everyone else had to do a job. The songs were already there. Just floating around in space. I didn’t do anything specifically FOR the movie. Except record some instrumental versions of a couple songs that only have two chords. That was easy. so, yeah…”
“Anyone Else But You”
Performed by The Moldy Peaches
ALSO performed by Ellen Page and Michael Cera
“Tire Swing”
“My Rollercoaster”
“So Nice So Smart”
“I Like Giants”
“Reminders of Then”
“12/26″
“Loose Lips”
Written and Performed by Kimya Dawson
“Tree Hugger”
“Sleep”
Performed by Kimya Dawson and Antsy Pants
“Once I Loved”
Performed by Astrud Gilberto
“All I Want Is You”
Written and Performed by: Barry Louis Polisar
“Besame Mucho”
Performed by: Trio Los Panchos
“A Well Respected Man”
Performed by The Kinks
“Doll Parts”
Written by Courtney Love
Preformed by ??????
“I’m Sticking With You”
Preformed by The Velvet Underground
“Dearest”
Performed by Buddy Holly
“Why Bother”
Performed by tHe drop
“Superstar”
Performed by Sonic Youth
“Piazza, New York Catcher”
“Expectations”
Performed by Belle & Sebastian
“All the Young Dudes”
Performed by Mott The Hoople
“Sea of Love”
Performed by Cat Power
“Vampire”
Performed by Antsy Pants
domingo, 24 de fevereiro de 2008
Porque não é a proximidade física que define o tamanho de uma amizade.
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Porque não é a proximidade física que define o tamanho de uma amizade.
Ela pode ser a distância, pode ser de muito tempo, pode ser de pouco tempo.
O que a define é o sentimento é a alegria pela outra pessoa.
O que define é a sua preocupação diária, é a vontade de saber como a outra está.
O que define é você estar parada no meio de uma multidão e imaginar se ela está bem, se parou de chorar, se melhorou da gripe, se está sorrindo, se alguém está lhe dando trabalho. É querer todos os dias que essa pessoa estivesse do seu lado. Que a distância não diminui o carinho, mesmo sendo doloroso as vezes. É saber que você é importante para alguém, e que essa pessoa gosta de você mesmo você sendo cabeça dura, mesmo ela te falando zilhões de vezes a mesma coisa e você ainda persistindo. O que define é a paciência que ela tem depois de você pedir desculpas, é como ela se sente e como ela te apoia em suas decisões. O que define é como ela se sente em relação as pessoas que lhe te querem ou lhe fizeram mal. Amizade é um pedacinho do coração que a gente entrega para uma pessoa que você considera especial, é onde você a guarda, é onde você sente o que ela sente é onde você a carrega.
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"PEACE PEACE PEACE"
time for changes...
domingo, 17 de fevereiro de 2008
Its an Alicia Keys Time for me!
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When You Really Love Someone Lyrics
Alicia Keys
I'm a woman
Lord knows it's hard
I need a real man to give me what I need
Sweet attention, love and tenderness
When it's real, its unconditional, I'm telling ya’ll
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough
To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
Cause you're a real man
And Lord knows it's hard
Sometimes you just need a woman's touch
Sweet affection, love and support
When it's real its unconditional
I'm telling ya’ll, oh
Cause a woman ain't a woman if she ain’t woman enough
To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
She's giving you her best, even when you’re at your worst
Giving comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Sometimes you're gonna argue, sometimes you're gonna fight
Sometimes it's gonna feel like it'll never be right
But something so strong keeps you hold’n on
It don't make sense but it makes a good song
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough
To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong (Love when you when you’re strong)
(Take you high’a) when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
I'm telling ya’ll that a woman ain't a woman if she ain’t woman enough
(To love ya!)
Love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
(To hold ya!)
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher and higher
when the world got you feeling low
She's giving you her best, even when you’re at your worst
(even when you’re at your worst, BABYBA!)
Giving comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
Mm, mm, yeah (4x)
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Lesson Learned
Alicia Keys
He broke my heart
and now it's raining
Just to rub it in
I'm at your door
I feel so crazy bout' it
You say I told you so
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go
I finally came around
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down
(2x)
It's alright
it's alright
It's alright
It's alright
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned.
Mistake overturned so I called it a lesson learned.
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.
Another lesson Learned
Sometimes some lies can
take a minute to fully realize
His tears your eyes
30 seconds to apoligize
You give him one more chance
just like the time before
but he already knows you'd give a hundred more
until that night in bed, you wake up in a sweat
Your racing to the door
Can't take it anymore
I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so i called it lesson learned.
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.
Another lesson learned....
Life perfect, aint perfect if you don't know what the struggles for
Falling down aint falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past 'cause im getting past
and i ain't nothing like I was before.
You ought to see me now.
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned but i called it lesson learned.
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.
Another lesson learned....
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Juiciest
Alicia Keys
Ooh, yeah
Uh, you know, hey
You know you may think
That you know you got me under wraps, locks and keys
and
And that without you I just, I'm gonna be lost
But I got somethin' else for you
Baby, I used to sit home waitin' for your call
I used to have your picture hangin' on my wall
Used to think you were right, but you was wrong
I used to miss you, now I'm glad that you're gone, I,
uh
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
(Yeah...yeah...)
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby, girl around (Girl
around)
And I got 999 men knockin' on my door
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby, girl around (Baby girl,
baby girl)
And I don't care if you don't call no more
We used to light a fire on a rainy night
I used to like when you'd come and hold me tight
I used believe we would never part, no
But now I've had a change of heart, whoa...
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
(La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la, I don't care)
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
(Yeah...yeah...I'm the juiciest, baby)
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby (Yeah), girl around
(Baby girl, baby girl)
And I got 999 men knockin' on my door ('Cause they
gotta have sweet now)
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby, girl around (Baby)
And I don't care if you don't call no more (Said I
don't care if you don't call me no more)
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby (Juicy), girl around
(Ho...)
And I got 999 men knockin' on my door (And all my
peoples who is juicy I want you to say, "Yeah")
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby (Uh-huh), girl around
(He's juicy)
And I don't care if you don't call no more (Biggie
Smalls is juicy)
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby (Mmm), girl around (He's
Kool-Aid)
And I got 999 men knockin' on my door
(La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la)
'Cause I'm the juiciest, baby (Juiciest, baby), girl
around (And you know that's right)
And I don't care if you don't call no more (Now I'm
glad that you're gone)
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
Baby, I don't care if you don't wanna call me no more
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His tears your eyes
30 seconds to apoligize
You give him one more chance
just like the time before
but he already knows you'd give a hundred more...
storry of my life >>>>> that was a very touching song...
it kinda makes sence with my life. :(
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sexta-feira, 15 de fevereiro de 2008
NIU gunman stopped taking medication
NIU gunman stopped taking medication By CARYN ROUSSEAU and DEANNA BELLANDI, Associated Press Writers
DEKALB, Ill. - The man who gunned down five people at Northern Illinois University in a suicidal rampage became erratic after halting his medication and carried a shotgun to campus inside a guitar case, police said Friday.
The man, 27-year-old former student Stephen Kazmierczak, was also wielding three handguns during Thursday's ambush inside a lecture hall. Two of the weapons — the pump-action Remington shotgun and a Glock 9mm handgun — were purchased legally less than a week ago, on Feb. 9, authorities said. They were purchased in Champaign, where Kazmierczak was enrolled at the University of Illinois. The other weapons were still being traced.
Flowers, candles, and small notes sit in the snow Friday, Feb. 15, 2008, on the campus of Northern Illinois University near Cole Hall, the scene where a lone gunman shot and killed six Thursday on the NIU in DeKalb, Ill.
(AP Photo/Nam Y. Huh)
Campus Police Chief Donald Grady said investigators recovered 48 shell casings and six shotgun shells following the attack in Cole Hall. The gunman paused to reload his shotgun after opening fire on a crowd of terrified students in a geology class, sending them running and crawling toward the exits. He shot himself to death on the stage of the hall.
Kazmierczak, whose first name was earlier listed as Steven, was taking some kind of medication, Grady said. "He had stopped taking medication and become somewhat erratic in the last couple of weeks," Grady said, declining to name the drug or provide other details. Correcting information his office released earlier Friday, DeKalb County Coroner Rusty Miller said five students, not six, were killed in the rampage, in addition to the gunman. Miller said the higher victim total was the result of confusion over the fate of a patient taken to another county for treatment.
"There was a miscommunication," Miller said.
In Florida, Polk County sheriff's officials said they were asked to notify the suspect's father — Robert Kazmierczak of Lakeland, Fla. — of his son's death. They said the elder Kazmierczak was not at home to avoid the media.
The motive of the killer, who graduated from NIU in 2006 but was a student there as recently as last year, was still not known. Grady said Kazmierczak was an "outstanding" student while at NIU and authorities were still trying to determine why he would kill. There was no known suicide note.
"We were dealing with a disturbed individual who intended to do harm on this campus," NIU President John Peters said.
Witnesses said the gunman, dressed in black and wearing a stocking cap, emerged from behind a screen on the stage of 200-seat Cole Hall and opened fire just as the class was about to end around 3 p.m. Officials said 162 students were registered for the class but it was unknown how many were there Thursday. Allyse Jerome, 19, a sophomore from Schaumburg, said the gunman burst through a stage door and pulled out a gun. "Honestly, at first everyone thought it was a joke," Jerome said. Everyone hit the floor, she said. Then she got up and ran, but tripped. She said she felt like "an open target." "He could've decided to get me," Jerome said. "I thought for sure he was gonna get me." John Giovanni, 20, of Des Plaines said the gunman calmly fired at the greatest concentration of students. "He was shooting from the hip. He was just shooting," said Giovanni, who turned and ran so fast that he lost a shoe. "I was running but I was hurtling over people in the fetal position."
Peters said four people died at the scene, including three students and the gunman. The others died at hospitals. The teacher, a graduate student, was wounded but was expected to recover. DeKalb County Coroner Dennis J. Miller released the identities of four victims: Daniel Parmenter, 20, of Westchester; Catalina Garcia, 20, of Cicero; Ryanne Mace, 19, of Carpentersville; and Julianna Gehant, 32, of Meridan. Another victim, Gayle Dubowski, a 20-year-old sophomore from Carol Stream, died at a Rockford hospital, Winnebago County Coroner Sue Fiduccia said.
The killer had been a graduate student in sociology at Northern Illinois as recently as spring 2007, Peters said. He also said the suspect had no record of police contact or an arrest record while attending Northern Illinois, a campus with 25,000 students about 65 miles west of Chicago. The gunman was a student at the University of Illinois in Urbana-Champaign, Chancellor Richard Herman said.
Lauren Carr said she was sitting in the third row when she saw the shooter walk through a door on the right-hand side of the stage, pointing a gun straight ahead.
"I personally Army-crawled halfway up the aisle," said Carr, a 20-year-old sophomore. "I said I could get up and run or I could die here." She said a student in front of her was bleeding, "but he just kept running." "I heard this girl scream, 'Run, he's reloading the gun!'"
More than a hundred students cried and hugged as they gathered outside the Phi Kappa Alpha house early Friday to remember Parmenter, the 20-year-old sophomore from Elmhurst, who was one of those killed. The campus was closed on Friday. Students were urged to call their parents and were offered counseling at any residence hall, according to the school Web site.
The school was closed for one day during final exam week in December after campus police found threats, including racial slurs and references to shootings earlier in the year at Virginia Tech, scrawled on a bathroom wall in a dormitory. Police determined after an investigation that there was no imminent threat and the campus was reopened. Peters said he knew of no connection between that incident and Thursday's attack.
Students gather for a prayer service on the campus of Northern Illinois University to pray for those killed and wounded in a shooting at Cole Hall in DeKalb, Illinois. Authorities investigated Friday what drove a former student to coldly spray a university lecture hall with bullets, killing six people and wounding 15 before turning a gun on himself
An apparent shooting victim is treated for injuries on the Northern Illinois University campus Thursday afternoon Feb. 14, 2008. A man opened fire with a shotgun and a handgun wounding several people at Northern Illinois University Thursday afternoon before apparently killing himself, authorities said. (AP Photo/Daily-Chronicle.com, Kate Weber) MANDATORY CREDIT Chronicle photo by Kate Weber Daily-Chronicle.com
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Associated Press writers Carla K. Johnson, Michael Tarm, David Mercer, Martha Irvine, Nguyen Huy Vu, Sarah Rafi, Mike Robinson and photographer Charles Rex Arbogast contributed to this report
Search: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080215/ap_on_re_us/niu_shooting
DEKALB, Ill. - The man who gunned down five people at Northern Illinois University in a suicidal rampage became erratic after halting his medication and carried a shotgun to campus inside a guitar case, police said Friday.
The man, 27-year-old former student Stephen Kazmierczak, was also wielding three handguns during Thursday's ambush inside a lecture hall. Two of the weapons — the pump-action Remington shotgun and a Glock 9mm handgun — were purchased legally less than a week ago, on Feb. 9, authorities said. They were purchased in Champaign, where Kazmierczak was enrolled at the University of Illinois. The other weapons were still being traced.
Flowers, candles, and small notes sit in the snow Friday, Feb. 15, 2008, on the campus of Northern Illinois University near Cole Hall, the scene where a lone gunman shot and killed six Thursday on the NIU in DeKalb, Ill.
(AP Photo/Nam Y. Huh)
Campus Police Chief Donald Grady said investigators recovered 48 shell casings and six shotgun shells following the attack in Cole Hall. The gunman paused to reload his shotgun after opening fire on a crowd of terrified students in a geology class, sending them running and crawling toward the exits. He shot himself to death on the stage of the hall.
Kazmierczak, whose first name was earlier listed as Steven, was taking some kind of medication, Grady said. "He had stopped taking medication and become somewhat erratic in the last couple of weeks," Grady said, declining to name the drug or provide other details. Correcting information his office released earlier Friday, DeKalb County Coroner Rusty Miller said five students, not six, were killed in the rampage, in addition to the gunman. Miller said the higher victim total was the result of confusion over the fate of a patient taken to another county for treatment.
"There was a miscommunication," Miller said.
In Florida, Polk County sheriff's officials said they were asked to notify the suspect's father — Robert Kazmierczak of Lakeland, Fla. — of his son's death. They said the elder Kazmierczak was not at home to avoid the media.
The motive of the killer, who graduated from NIU in 2006 but was a student there as recently as last year, was still not known. Grady said Kazmierczak was an "outstanding" student while at NIU and authorities were still trying to determine why he would kill. There was no known suicide note.
"We were dealing with a disturbed individual who intended to do harm on this campus," NIU President John Peters said.
Witnesses said the gunman, dressed in black and wearing a stocking cap, emerged from behind a screen on the stage of 200-seat Cole Hall and opened fire just as the class was about to end around 3 p.m. Officials said 162 students were registered for the class but it was unknown how many were there Thursday. Allyse Jerome, 19, a sophomore from Schaumburg, said the gunman burst through a stage door and pulled out a gun. "Honestly, at first everyone thought it was a joke," Jerome said. Everyone hit the floor, she said. Then she got up and ran, but tripped. She said she felt like "an open target." "He could've decided to get me," Jerome said. "I thought for sure he was gonna get me." John Giovanni, 20, of Des Plaines said the gunman calmly fired at the greatest concentration of students. "He was shooting from the hip. He was just shooting," said Giovanni, who turned and ran so fast that he lost a shoe. "I was running but I was hurtling over people in the fetal position."
Peters said four people died at the scene, including three students and the gunman. The others died at hospitals. The teacher, a graduate student, was wounded but was expected to recover. DeKalb County Coroner Dennis J. Miller released the identities of four victims: Daniel Parmenter, 20, of Westchester; Catalina Garcia, 20, of Cicero; Ryanne Mace, 19, of Carpentersville; and Julianna Gehant, 32, of Meridan. Another victim, Gayle Dubowski, a 20-year-old sophomore from Carol Stream, died at a Rockford hospital, Winnebago County Coroner Sue Fiduccia said.
The killer had been a graduate student in sociology at Northern Illinois as recently as spring 2007, Peters said. He also said the suspect had no record of police contact or an arrest record while attending Northern Illinois, a campus with 25,000 students about 65 miles west of Chicago. The gunman was a student at the University of Illinois in Urbana-Champaign, Chancellor Richard Herman said.
Lauren Carr said she was sitting in the third row when she saw the shooter walk through a door on the right-hand side of the stage, pointing a gun straight ahead.
"I personally Army-crawled halfway up the aisle," said Carr, a 20-year-old sophomore. "I said I could get up and run or I could die here." She said a student in front of her was bleeding, "but he just kept running." "I heard this girl scream, 'Run, he's reloading the gun!'"
More than a hundred students cried and hugged as they gathered outside the Phi Kappa Alpha house early Friday to remember Parmenter, the 20-year-old sophomore from Elmhurst, who was one of those killed. The campus was closed on Friday. Students were urged to call their parents and were offered counseling at any residence hall, according to the school Web site.
The school was closed for one day during final exam week in December after campus police found threats, including racial slurs and references to shootings earlier in the year at Virginia Tech, scrawled on a bathroom wall in a dormitory. Police determined after an investigation that there was no imminent threat and the campus was reopened. Peters said he knew of no connection between that incident and Thursday's attack.
Students gather for a prayer service on the campus of Northern Illinois University to pray for those killed and wounded in a shooting at Cole Hall in DeKalb, Illinois. Authorities investigated Friday what drove a former student to coldly spray a university lecture hall with bullets, killing six people and wounding 15 before turning a gun on himself
An apparent shooting victim is treated for injuries on the Northern Illinois University campus Thursday afternoon Feb. 14, 2008. A man opened fire with a shotgun and a handgun wounding several people at Northern Illinois University Thursday afternoon before apparently killing himself, authorities said. (AP Photo/Daily-Chronicle.com, Kate Weber) MANDATORY CREDIT Chronicle photo by Kate Weber Daily-Chronicle.com
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Associated Press writers Carla K. Johnson, Michael Tarm, David Mercer, Martha Irvine, Nguyen Huy Vu, Sarah Rafi, Mike Robinson and photographer Charles Rex Arbogast contributed to this report
Search: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080215/ap_on_re_us/niu_shooting
quinta-feira, 14 de fevereiro de 2008
Breaking News: At Least 2 People Shot at NIU
Several People Reported Shot at Northern Illinois University
Thursday, February 14, 2008
A gunman opened fire Thursday afternoon on the campus of Northern Illinois University, wounding as many as 15 people and possibly killing himself, authorities said.
The campus newspaper, Northern Star, has reported the gunman is dead, and DeKalb County Sheriff Roger Scott described the gunman's death as a possible suicide, according to the Chicago Sun-Times.
"The gunman is no longer a threat," the university said in a notice posted on its Web site at 4:14 p.m. CT. "The DeKalb campus is closed tomorrow. Students can go to any residence hall for counseling."
A student told FOX News that the shooting occurred in Cole Hall, a building with lecture rooms.
Richie Dalitto, a freshman at Northern Illinois, told FOX News he heard that a student walked into Cole Hall carrying a shotgun, "went absolutely crazy" and fired some shots inside.
The campus is under lockdown with streets blocked off and officers on the scene.
The university is located in DeKalb, Ill., about 65 miles west of Chicago.
Click here for more on this story from MyFOXChicago.com.
FOX News' Marla Cichowski and The Associated Press contributed to this report.
CAMPUS ALERT
2/14/08
5:20 p.m.
Many of the shooting victims have been transported to Kishwaukee Community Hospital in DeKalb.
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5:12 p.m.
Police are confirming that the shooter is dead by a self-inflicted gunshot.
A press conference will be held in the Altgeld Hall Auditorium at 5:30 p.m.
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4:39 p.m.
A media staging area is available in the auditorium of Altgeld Hall (castle building on east side of campus).
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4:31 p.m.
All NIU students are asked to call their parents as soon as possible.
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4:24 p.m.
Campus police reiterate that an immediate danger has passed. Students should return to their residence halls and stay there. All classes are cancelled and all NIU campuses are closed for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08).
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4:14 p.m.
Campus police report that the immediate danger has passed. The gunman is no longer a threat. The DeKalb campus is closed tomorrow. All NIU classes are cancelled and campuses are closed for tonight and tomorrow. Students can go to any residence hall for counseling.
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4:10 p.m.
Campus police report that the scene is secure. Only essential personnel should remain on campus.
The following hotlines are available for students & parents.
815-753-1573
815-753-6143
815-753-1574
815-753-1575
815-753-9564
815-753-6257
Counseling is also available on campus for students at the Neptune Dining Hall, Campus Life Building 100 and the Psychological Services Center in the Psychology/Computer Science Building. Students may go to any residence hall for counseling.
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3:50 p.m.
It has been confirmed that there has been a shooting on campus and several people have been taken away by ambulance. All NIU campuses are closed and classes are cancelled for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08) on the DeKalb campus. People are urged not to come to campus. More information will be posted as it becomes available.
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3:40 p.m.
All classes on the DeKalb campus are cancelled for tonight. All NIU campuses are closed and all classes are cancelled for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08).
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3:20 p.m.
There has been a report of a possible gunman on campus. Get to a safe area and take precautions until given the all clear. Avoid the King Commons and all buildings in that vicinity.
http://media.myfoxchicago.com/HTML/live1.html
Injuries Reported in Northern Illinois University Campus Shooting
Last Edited: Thursday, 14 Feb 2008, 4:05 PM CST
Created: Thursday, 14 Feb 2008, 3:28 PM CST
Campus Alert from NIU Website
WFLD
Reports on coming in of a gunman on the campus of Northern Illinois University in DeKalb. At this point reports say anywhere from one to three people have been shot including the gunman. A campus alert on the NIU website advises anyone at the school to get to a safe place and, "avoid King Commons and all buildings in the vicinity."
The (DeKalb) Daily Chronicle said there were injuries, citing information heard over a police scanner shortly after 3 p.m. The scanner alerted police about a white, male shooter with a shotgun and pistol.
DeKalb County Sheriff Roger Scott confirmed they received “hundreds of calls” reporting shots fired on NIU’s campus beginning about 3:04 p.m. Thursday.
Scott could not confirm that anyone had been shot, but did say shots had been fired on campus.
DeKalb County police were on the scene as of 3:30 p.m. assisting NIU Police, in whose jurisdiction the campus lies. NIU Police were not immediately available for comment.
A DeKalb Fire Department spokeswoman said ambulances were dispached to the campus around 3:05 p.m.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
A gunman opened fire Thursday afternoon on the campus of Northern Illinois University, wounding as many as 15 people and possibly killing himself, authorities said.
The campus newspaper, Northern Star, has reported the gunman is dead, and DeKalb County Sheriff Roger Scott described the gunman's death as a possible suicide, according to the Chicago Sun-Times.
"The gunman is no longer a threat," the university said in a notice posted on its Web site at 4:14 p.m. CT. "The DeKalb campus is closed tomorrow. Students can go to any residence hall for counseling."
A student told FOX News that the shooting occurred in Cole Hall, a building with lecture rooms.
Richie Dalitto, a freshman at Northern Illinois, told FOX News he heard that a student walked into Cole Hall carrying a shotgun, "went absolutely crazy" and fired some shots inside.
The campus is under lockdown with streets blocked off and officers on the scene.
The university is located in DeKalb, Ill., about 65 miles west of Chicago.
Click here for more on this story from MyFOXChicago.com.
FOX News' Marla Cichowski and The Associated Press contributed to this report.
CAMPUS ALERT
2/14/08
5:20 p.m.
Many of the shooting victims have been transported to Kishwaukee Community Hospital in DeKalb.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
5:12 p.m.
Police are confirming that the shooter is dead by a self-inflicted gunshot.
A press conference will be held in the Altgeld Hall Auditorium at 5:30 p.m.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
4:39 p.m.
A media staging area is available in the auditorium of Altgeld Hall (castle building on east side of campus).
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
4:31 p.m.
All NIU students are asked to call their parents as soon as possible.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
4:24 p.m.
Campus police reiterate that an immediate danger has passed. Students should return to their residence halls and stay there. All classes are cancelled and all NIU campuses are closed for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08).
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
4:14 p.m.
Campus police report that the immediate danger has passed. The gunman is no longer a threat. The DeKalb campus is closed tomorrow. All NIU classes are cancelled and campuses are closed for tonight and tomorrow. Students can go to any residence hall for counseling.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
4:10 p.m.
Campus police report that the scene is secure. Only essential personnel should remain on campus.
The following hotlines are available for students & parents.
815-753-1573
815-753-6143
815-753-1574
815-753-1575
815-753-9564
815-753-6257
Counseling is also available on campus for students at the Neptune Dining Hall, Campus Life Building 100 and the Psychological Services Center in the Psychology/Computer Science Building. Students may go to any residence hall for counseling.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
3:50 p.m.
It has been confirmed that there has been a shooting on campus and several people have been taken away by ambulance. All NIU campuses are closed and classes are cancelled for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08) on the DeKalb campus. People are urged not to come to campus. More information will be posted as it becomes available.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
3:40 p.m.
All classes on the DeKalb campus are cancelled for tonight. All NIU campuses are closed and all classes are cancelled for tonight and tomorrow (2/15/08).
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
3:20 p.m.
There has been a report of a possible gunman on campus. Get to a safe area and take precautions until given the all clear. Avoid the King Commons and all buildings in that vicinity.
http://media.myfoxchicago.com/HTML/live1.html
Injuries Reported in Northern Illinois University Campus Shooting
Last Edited: Thursday, 14 Feb 2008, 4:05 PM CST
Created: Thursday, 14 Feb 2008, 3:28 PM CST
Campus Alert from NIU Website
WFLD
Reports on coming in of a gunman on the campus of Northern Illinois University in DeKalb. At this point reports say anywhere from one to three people have been shot including the gunman. A campus alert on the NIU website advises anyone at the school to get to a safe place and, "avoid King Commons and all buildings in the vicinity."
The (DeKalb) Daily Chronicle said there were injuries, citing information heard over a police scanner shortly after 3 p.m. The scanner alerted police about a white, male shooter with a shotgun and pistol.
DeKalb County Sheriff Roger Scott confirmed they received “hundreds of calls” reporting shots fired on NIU’s campus beginning about 3:04 p.m. Thursday.
Scott could not confirm that anyone had been shot, but did say shots had been fired on campus.
DeKalb County police were on the scene as of 3:30 p.m. assisting NIU Police, in whose jurisdiction the campus lies. NIU Police were not immediately available for comment.
A DeKalb Fire Department spokeswoman said ambulances were dispached to the campus around 3:05 p.m.
February 14 is Valentines Day!
It's Valentine's Day Again!
What does Valentine's Day mean to you? It is hard to be indifferent to this anniversary which seems to come around with surprising speed. No sooner have social arrangements for Christmas and the New Year been negotiated, than the fourteenth of February is upon us once more. February 14 is Valentines Day is the day on which we celebrate and explore love in all it’s many ideals. How a day for lovers came to be celebrated during the middle of February is an interesting and ages old story.Many legends and myths surround the celebration of this day. Most agree that it is named after St Valentine who contrary to all decrees forbidding marriage, carried out secret weddings for young lovers. He was put to death and became a martyr for refusing to stop marrying couples, and the day he died, 14th February 269 AD, became a day for remembering him. And so he became the patron saint of lovers. The story of Valentines Day begins during the heyday of the Roman Empire, which held a festival every February. This Lupercian Festival was held in honor of the God of Fertility and during the festivities young men would get to choose their mate. At the time marriage was a common occurrence, but when Claudius became Emperor he changed all of that. Fearing that men would refuse their duty to fight because they would not want to leave their wives behind, he outlawed all marriages. Young couples still fell in love though and still wished to marry and they took these desires to the Catholic Bishop Valentine who, understanding love, began to secretly marry couples. When Claudius found out, he had Valentine arrested and ordered put to death. While waiting in jail, Valentine began exchanging letters with the jailer’s daughter and soon had fallen in love with her. The day he was to be beheaded, he wrote her one last note and signed it: ‘From Your Valentine’.
In 496 A.D. Christianity had taken over Rome and Pope Gelasius outlawed the pagen Lupercian Festival. Knowing it’s popularity, he looked to replace it with something more ‘appropriate’ and set aside a day in February to honor the martyr St. Valentine. Even though in 1969 the church removed St. Valentines Day from it’s calendar of ‘official’ holidays, it is still widely celebrated today.
Valentines Day is perhaps best known for its cards. This is a custom whose origins could stem from any number of places. One belief is that the tradition began when St. Valentine himself passed notes to the jailer’s daughter. Another story is that children used to pass notes to St. Valentine while he was in jail. He was so popular that even after his death the children still placed noted through the bars in his empty cell. A third story as to the origin of passing out cards stems from a French Count who was captured and imprisoned in London. From his cell he wrote his wife letters, including a passionate set of poems which he sent to her in February. However it truly started, Valentines Day cards are now sent at the rate of one billion a year, setting it just behind Christmas as the most popular card sending holiday. Valentines Day cards have been around in one form or another for hundreds of years. They became popular in the 1700’s as handmade cards made with satin and ribbon and lace among other fineries. By the early 1800’s, commercial valentines began to appear. Some were so ornate that they cost upwards of ten dollars. An amazing sum for those times. By the 1840's cards were so intricate that some had moving parts. Up until the late 1800’s, all of the mass-produced Valentines Day cards were made in England and other European countries. In the early 1870’s a 19-year-old American woman named Esther Howland had the idea to begin producing commercial Valentines Day cards in America. She started out with three friends and her brother and in assembly line fashion began producing hand-crafted cards which were shipped around the country. By the end of the decade she was making over 100,000$ a year. At the turn of the century, a new form of Valentines Day card appeared the ‘Penny Dreadful’. Up until this point, cards were relatively expensive but the Penny Dreadful changed all that. They were just what the name implied, costing only one cent and completely bad. The cards were cheaply made, the artwork was amateurish and the coloring was uneven. On top of that the verses printed on them were not the most romantic of prose. They were more often ‘insults’, taking swipes at old maids, teachers and the like. Still their low cost kept them popular for years.
Like many holidays, Valentines Day is a day of symbols. Walking around in the first few weeks of February, you can’t turn a corner without seeing a red rose. The rose was sacred to Venus who is the Goddess of Love. Another popular symbol of the day are birds, particularly doves and lovebirds. These are two birds which mate for life and it was once believed that they choose their mate in the middle of February. Of course no Valentines Day would be complete without a multitude of hearts. It was once believed that the heart was the center of all emotion. People believed that when they gave a heart, they were truly giving all of the love and emotion that they possibly could give. In the Middle Ages men would pull a woman’s name out of a bowl. This would be the man’s Valentine. To show his devotion, the man would wear the paper containing the woman’s name on his sleeve for a week. This soon became known as ‘wearing your heart on your sleeve’. And Valentines Day wouldn't be the same without a visit from Cupid, the winged cherub with a bow and arrow which he uses to place people into love. The origins of Cupid can be traced back to the days of the Roman Empire. Cupid is a Roman God, the symbol of passionate love. (He is the son of Venus, who remember is the Goddess of Love.) Cupid fell madly and completely in love with Psyche, whom it happened was a mortal. This did not please Venus at all and she gave Psyche a particularly hard time, consistently tempting her and driving her off. Eventually, through a small series of human faults, Psyche was tempted to look into the ‘box of beauty’ and when she did, she unleashed a deep slumber onto herself. Cupid then came to Earth and searched the world for her. He found her in her deep sleep. His love for her was so strong though that he was able to take the sleep from her and place it back into the box. Then he used an arrow to pierce her heart and awaken her.
Besides giving cards, candy and kisses there are some other interesting customs (both current and past) associated with Valentines Day. For instance, in England children take to the street, singing songs and passing out cards. In Denmark people give out pressed white flowers as a sign of their affection. In the 1700’s, English women would write the names of men on small pieces of paper and then roll the paper up inside little balls of clay. They threw the balls into the water and the first paper that popped to the surface was the one with the name of the woman’s true love. A popular belief is that if a woman goes to a graveyard and runs around reciting a certain chant, she will see an image of her true love. A similar idea held over from years past is that on Valentines Day a woman is to sit by her window. The first available man that walks by is the one who is destined to marry her.
There is a dark footnote that must be added to the history of this special day. The date: Valentines Day 1929. The place: Chicago. The event: The St. Valentines Day Massacre. It is still not completely clear who all of the players were that were involved and what the exact motives were, but this much is know: seven men were viciously gunned down in a Chicago garage. The men who did the shooting were dressed as police officers and were members of Al Capone’s gang. The men who were shot were of a rival bootlegging operation. This was of course not the only gangland killing of the time, but it has grown to symbolize the mood and actions of Prohibition.
So as to not end on a dour note, a Bruskin-Golding study of the holiday discovered that 3% of all pet owners buy a Valentines Day gift for their pet lol. According to statistics 85% of all valentine cards are bought by women. Oh, dear! Does this mean there are a lot of women who are disappointed every 14th February when the postman passes by? Even our sisters who scorn the whole idea as ‘commercial' or ‘twee' can suddenly find themselves pressing that special flower, or find that ‘somehow' they have kept that empty chocolate box. And who knows, these may become the keepsakes of tomorrow. It all depends who the gift is from. Perhaps there is an answer with the Internet, though. At the touch of finger a Valentine can be sent to your love with the speed of light.Remember, there is an old superstition that if you see a robin on St. Valentine's Day you will marry a sailor. If you see a sparrow, you will marry a poor man. If you see a goldfinch, you will marry a millionaire. So beware where you look! We all like to be loved, and after all, Valentine's Day is about love and sometimes it is great for this to be shown in a symbolic way. It's the time of the year for a little romance in the air, and who can quarrel with that?
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segunda-feira, 11 de fevereiro de 2008
medo do desconhecido
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Nenhuma inspiração
Muitos pensamentos.
Muitas vontades.
Pessoas ressurgindo e também surgindo.
Cabeça borbulhando.
Saudades.
Esperanças para o novo.
Angústia pelo que virá.
Medo do que foi.
E NENHUMA IDÉIA de como colocar isso em palavras.
Não sei... Tá difícil de entender.
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domingo, 10 de fevereiro de 2008
A árvore mais sexy do mundo
Aqui temos a árvore mais sexy do mundo.
Árvore que já quebrou muito corações e que recebe mais de 1000 visitas diarias.
Demostração de que a natureza tem peitos alma.
Fonte:AcrediteSeQuiser.NET!
terça-feira, 5 de fevereiro de 2008
Carnaval Recife-Olinda BRASIL!!!
Carnaval - Recife & Olinda 2008
Carnaval in Brasil = 4 days - officially, but in my State starts in January...Yes baby, 4 intire days of letting go...celebrating with music, costumes, parties, dancing, dancing, dancing with lots of joy = alegria...Carnaval = drinking, eating...
Carnaval = Frevo = traditional music/dance of Olinda/Recife...By the way, we were still celebrating 100 years of frevo, so samba didn't dominate like in Rio - whether it be large extravagant parades of the samba schools (Rio and Sao Paulo) - for which one must pay great sums of $$$ for the privilege of spectating - or the more democratic, free, 'come one come all and be part of the crowd' street fests of Recife and Olinda - Carnaval is a unique, nationally-unifying experience and all life outside carnaval practially stops, much like during the World Cup...
When the music starts you cant help but feeling like dancing....of course, music and dance are two things Brasil never lacks, too bad I dont like beer...drinking :O if you do like, Olinda its the right place to go this time of year, thats for sure! After all this time I spent far away from MY CULTURE...MY PEOPLE...MY COUNTRY I finaly got the chance to experience carnaval in Olinda and Recife again!!!
OMGosh!!!Olinda during the day was a madness of more people than I could ever imagine crowding the narrow hilly streets of the old city - which sits high atop a hill, of course - marked by people in outrageous costumes, bands and 'blocos' - literally, 'blocks' or groups of folks who parade together with certain themes and always a band marching along with them - which just never stopped...NEVER!
Goodness! It was hot hot hot and not a place I would recommend for claustraphobics. Brasilians seems to think the more you are squished in with others as you march ( the less your feet actually touch the ground), drinking and singing and dancing, through whatever streets the bloco parade takes you, the better is the carnaval! Peronally, I kinda change a little bit and now I prefer a little more breathing space, but it was fun nonetheless!We sure know how to party...we definitely know how to have fun!
All-womens maracatu group - maracatu is a great percussion-based type of music
Its great to run into old friends at carnaval
100 years of frevo!
...getting ready for the bloco 'eu acho e pouco' (i think its little) to start their parade...
Some costumes are very creative! besides this carton of chinese food, we also saw a toilet (which you could sit on), a shower, fidel castro, and of course a lot of men in very ugly drag...
Today was unofficially 'superhero' day!!!
The Simpsons were there! I like this one.
..the Flinstones showed up too
Many folks attend 'fantasiado', or dressed up - always with the intention of wearing as little clothing as possbible - not because i am an exhibitionist but because it was SO HOT!
Elefante
Clídio Nigro / Clóvis Vieira
Ao som dos clarins de Momo
O povo aclama com todo ardor
O Elefante exaltando a suas tradições
E também seu esplendor
Olinda esse meu canto
Foi inspirado em teu louvor
Entre confetes e serpentinas
Venho te oferecer
Com alegria o meu amor
Olinda! Quero cantar a ti esta canção
Teus coqueirais, o teu sol, o teu mar
Faz vibrar meu coração, de amor a sonhar
Em Olinda sem igual
Salve o teu Carnaval!
Voltei Recife
Luís Bandeira
Voltei, Recife
Foi a saudade
Que me trouxe pelo braço
Quero ver novamente "Vassoura"
Na rua abafando
Tomar umas e outras
E cair no passo
Cadê "Toureiros"?
Cadê "Bola de Ouro"?
As "pás", os "lenhadores"
O "Bloco Batutas de São José"?
Quero sentir
A embriaguês do frevo
Que entra na cabeça
Depois toma o corpo
E acaba no pé
Leão do Norte
( Lenine e Paulo César Pinheiro)
Sou o coração do folclore nordestino
Eu sou Mateus e Bastião do Boi Bumbá
Sou o boneco do Mestre Vitalino
Dançando uma ciranda em Itamaracá
Eu sou um verso de Carlos Pena Filho
Num frevo de Capiba
Ao som da orquestra armorial
Sou Capibaribe
Num livro de João Cabral
Sou mamulengo de São Bento do Una
Vindo no baque solto de Maracatu
Eu sou um alto de Ariano Suassuna
No meio da Feira de Caruaru
Sou Frei Caneca do Pastoril do Faceta
Levando a flor da lira
Pra nova Jerusalém
Sou Luis Gonzaga
E eu sou mangue também
Eu sou mameluco, sou de Casa Forte
Sou de Pernambuco, sou o Leão do Norte
Sou Macambira de Joaquim Cardoso
Banda de Pifo no meio do Carnaval
Na noite dos tambores silenciosos
Sou a calunga revelando o Carnaval
Sou a folia que desce lá de Olinda
O homem da meia-noite puxando esse cordão
Sou jangadeiro na festa de Jaboatão
Eu sou mameluco...
Todo Carnaval Tem Seu Fim
Marcelo Camelo - Los Hermanos
Todo dia um ninguém José acorda já deitado
Todo dia, ainda de pé, o Zé dorme acordado
Todo dia o dia não quer raiar o sol do dia
Toda trilha é andada com a fé de quem crê no ditado
De que o dia insiste em nascer
Mas o dia insiste em nascer pra ver deitar o novo...
Toda rosa é rosa por que assim ela é chamada
Toda bossa é nova e você não liga se é usada
Todo o carnaval tem seu fim
Todo o carnaval tem seu fim
É o fim
É o fim
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz
Toda banda tem um tarol, quem sabe eu não toco
Todo samba tem um refrão pra levantar o bloco
Toda escolha é feita por quem acorda já deitado
Toda folha elege um alguém que mora logo ao lado
E pinta o estandarte de azul
E põe suas estrelas no azul
-"Pra que mudar?"
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz !
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz !
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz !
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz !
-Deixa eu brincar de ser feliz, deixa eu pintar o meu nariz !
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